From the day I found out that we were adding another child into our family, I was beyond excited. The anticipation up until this point has been high. We are now in the last week/days until we meet Asher and my mind has been in a bit of panic mode. Are we sure we are ready for this?
When we found out we were pregnant with Simeon we were shocked but we knew we wanted to start family in the near future anyways, so the shock didn't seem to stick around long. While both Abel and I knew our relationship would change, we knew it was for the better and we were ready (or as ready as you can be to become parents). We relished in our last few childless days by fishing, hanging out with friends until all hours of the night, and just enjoying each others company. Those last few weeks before Simeon's arrival are some of my favorite memories pre-kids.
This time around, the waiting has felt completely different. While Abel and I know what to expect in the early newborn days, we now have Simeon and his sweet two year old emotions to think about. We are both pretty anxious to see how he will react to his little brother and are excited to watch him step into his role of big brother. A role that I am sure he is going to be fantastic at.
We have spent all pregnancy telling him that he is going to be a big brother, showing him when my belly moves, and pulling out the baby gear telling him that it is for baby Asher. I truly believe that he knows that there is a baby in my belly and that Asher is his "bubba" but I can't be too sure that he fully understands the extent of what is to come in the next few days.
Part of me is a little bit sad that our time alone together is coming to an end. He has been my constant companion for the past (almost) two years. I have tried my hardest to soak up these past few weeks and give him my full attention before little brother enters the scene and he is having to share the spot light. I will forever look back on these years just the two of us with great fondness. He is the one who taught me how to be a momma after all.
I think I am just as excited to meet Asher and discover the person that he is, as I am to watch Simeon become a be a big brother. I am sure that there is to be jealousy in the early days, but Simeon loves babies and has such a tender heart that I know he is going to be as in love with Asher as we all are.
I can't wait to hear my two boys chatting and laughing it up in their shared room before they finally drift off to sleep, watching them wrestle or play football in the back yard, and eventually eat me out of house and home. I never thought I would be a good boy mom, but am finding out daily that the Lord knew exactly what my heart desired before I did.
I think I can confidently say we are as ready as we will ever be to meet you, Asher. I can't wait to finally put a face with your name, discover your personality, likes and dislikes, and fall just as in love with you as I have with your brother. While I am still a bit anxious, we are ready.
But while I wait here patiently (or not so patiently) awaiting your birthday, I'll cherish these last few park dates, trips to the grocery store, and back yard shenanigans alone with Simeon.